I have been thinking lately, about the incredible love of God...and how much I don't deserve it. The Lord loves us so stinkin' much, that he actually sent Jesus to come pay for the price of our sins. Something that we should have paid for. We sin over and over again, and shame our Father, but all of that was put on the cross and died with Him over 2,000 years ago. We weren't even born yet. I don't deserve this, or the fact that He is building an absolutely wonderfully fabulous Home for me when I pass away.
Sometimes I believe we take advantage of God's forgiveness of our sins, and don't really think what He went through to get rid of our filth. It is not a light matter, let me tell you! I am even at fault for this. A lot of times, I just say "Lord please forgive me of this or that" but don't really think about the seriousness of it all. The Lord likens hate to murder, meaning that he sees it as the same (1 John 3:15) He views sin, even what we would call "little ones", as something dreadful. And if the Lord thinks that way, we need to too. If we want to be like Jesus we need to follow His example, and even the way He thinks, since His Ways are right.
I've been thinking about this so much, that there have been times where it is hard for me to accept His forgiveness for my sins, because I know how much I don't deserve it. It is definitely a learning process, to accept His mercy. I can't understand why God would love me so much as to have mercy and grace on me in my unrighteousness. I have now been able to fully comprehend those words Grace and Mercy because of this realization of my sin and His absolute forgiveness.
I owe Him so much! And the only way I can figure to pay Him back even relatively close, is by totally surrendering and giving Him my entire life, to serve Him, honor Him, love Him, obey Him, and do whatever He asks and requires of me. There is no wiggle room. There is no room for worldly pleasures, for worry, sin, or pride. If I am to give Him my all, I need to give Him my all with joy and confidence, since I know that He will take care of me. Will you surrender?
He is worthy and greatly to be praised